Dear Abby: I am 55 now. Between the ages of 18 and 26, I was married four times to three different men.
I was stupid. I had no direction in life and thought marriage was the answer. At 27, I went back to college, graduated, and became a certified public accountant.
I married again at 34. My husband was abusive, and the marriage was rocky, to say the least. He hit me, shoved me, kicked me, drank too much, passed out in the street, and was a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde to live with.
I hung in with him for 20 years because I was desperate to make a marriage work and avoid further shame.
I finally left him last year. I feel damaged, empty, and ashamed, and I don’t know how to start over at this point. I have been fighting a chronic illness for 8 years, which contributes to my feelings of hopelessness.
Have you any advice about where I can turn to start a new life? Please don’t suggest counseling. I have already done that and gotten as much healing from it as possible. Now I need to know how to move forward.
– Shamed But Not Stupid
Dear Shamed: Your new life began the moment you walked out the door and left your abuser behind. I have often asked, “If marriage is the answer, what is the question?” Now that you know marriage isn’t the answer, you can begin building your new life by first forgiving yourself, and then learning to like yourself again.
There are online support groups for divorced people as well as those recovering from abusive relationships. It may be helpful to sample a few to see if you can find the support you’re looking for. I wish you luck, because you are finally on the right track.
Dear Abby: My husband of 20 years always has been a smoker. I worry nonstop about it affecting his health. Our children have begged him to quit.
A couple of months ago we made a bet. I would give up social media for a week if he would quit smoking for a week. It was awesome. He quit smoking – or so I thought.
I found out last week that he only quit smoking at home. He still has been doing it at work. I asked him to please not start smoking at home. After all, if he can go all weekend without a cigarette, why does he need to smoke at all?
My issue: I caught him smoking in the garage. I was furious and didn’t handle it well. Am I wrong for being upset that he went against my wishes? By the way, the kids don’t know he has started again.
– Smoke-free Wife
Dear Smoke-free Wife: No, you’re not wrong. It’s understandable that you are upset. You love your husband. If the kids don’t know he has started smoking again, they’ll soon realize it because they’ll smell it on him.
It should be clear to you that your husband has a serious addiction to nicotine.
You have my sympathy, but you cannot “make” him do this or do it “for” him. Secondhand smoke is unhealthy for those who are exposed to it, so unless you can convince your spouse to get help from his doctor, the rule should be that he smokes outside the house when he needs a “fix.”
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